Monday, May 16, 2005
burn in hell, B-U-R-N!!
i am majorly pissed off right now.
no outgoin. never mind. bloody hell! no incomin either! wtf. screw you, you blood suckin life drainin money lovin greedy whore of a corporation!
you ask me out. you ask me to wait for your call. i wait. no call. i get ready. still no call. i call you. you give stupid lame assed excuses about why you didnt call me back. never mind. i give you the benefit of the doubt. i ask you if you still wanna meet up. you say "of course!" but ask me to call you back in 3 min. i do that. you tell me that someone just called and you have to go meet them instead. i explode.
you know i'm havin a bad day. you were the one that wanted to meet me. and then after i drag myself outta bed and spend time and effort gettin ready and waitin for your damn call, you CANCEL. no sorry, no explanation, nothin. plus, you know i'm upset and i needed comfortin. but no, you choose instead to piss me off even further. you just tell me to go and sleep my bad mood and my upset-ness off.
well, screw you too! next time, dont ask me out if its gonna end up like this!
i'm not bein unreasonable.
i hate gettin ready, then havin to take off everythin again 10 min later. you think what? i very free issit?! nothin better to do but play "dress-up-put-make-up-but-all-for-nothin" at 10 o'clock at night issit?!
and i absolutely HATE havin to sit around, waitin for people to call, but they don't call in the end.
it sucks. makes me feel damn pathetic. which i am bloody hell am NOT, alright!! dammit.
yes. there's so much anger and hatred in me.
i'm just a steamin huge life sized container of extremely flammable, highly combustible, dangerously volatile, any-minute-goin-to-erupt-and-blow-up-in-your-face-and-kill-you anger vapour and hate gas.
oh. they're callin for me now. i'm due for simultaneous combustion.
my new meditation mantra.